Whispering Endearments
All words and music by Ari HerstandCopyright 2008 ASCAP
1. One Bell
In the very beginning I fell
For so long I’d been waiting for one bell
But a sleigh ride came through
on the back there was you
tugging the horses to halt
You glanced right at me
asked to play harmony
with one bell
We know just one bell won’t suffice
each note comes in pairs just like dice
For harmony I can see
no one else but you and me
I jumped on hesitantly but I fell
Holding on very gently to my bell
You turned back to me
said don’t get too comfy
right here
This ride was for me
thanks for the company
my dear
You’re stops just up there
Without me you can share
one bell
We know just one bell won’t suffice
each note comes in pairs just like dice
For harmony I can see
no one else but you and me
I ring my bell right beside
You hold your bell locked inside
So I’ll burn down this Christmas tree
Set fire to this harmony
of bells
The beginning has come to an end
I once fallen so madly now spent
I have learned to turn off
all my feelings and block
my bell
I can’t push you to ring
I have tried now it stings
to tell
It’s now your new beginning you fell
Coming back to me ringing your bell
Thanks to you I can’t fall
I’ve put back up my wall
with one bell
We know just one bell won’t suffice
Each note comes in pairs just like dice
For harmony I can see
no one else but you and me
2. Whispering Endearments
What’s the name that you speak
when you close your eyes and fall to sleep
Am I the one in your dreams
or when you wake will you leave me
Last night you breathed into my ear
whispering endearments unclear
You never spoke that way to me before
I just hope it’s me you meant them for
I’m waiting for you to break my heart
so I can move on with life and restart
I am stuck inside your every move
I’m waiting for you to break my heart
We go out on the town
I take your hand spin you around
You turn to me and lock eyes
and for a moment I lose my sight
It’s not that I can’t be alone
on the contrary I’ve lived till now on my own
But every time I make you laugh
you tickle my heart and I’m right back in love
I’m waiting for you to break my heart
so I can move on with life and restart
I am stuck and don’t know what to do
I’m waiting for you to break my heart
3. Last Day
If you knew this was your last day what would you do
If you knew this was our last kiss how would your lips move
If I should end up at the end of this day
sealing that letter we send when there’s no more to say
I’d lick the stamp, leave no return address
so when it finds its way there there’s no room for regret
I don’t know why I can’t provide the post script inside
I can’t decide the sound of my sigh the moment I die
If you knew this was your last day what would you do
If you knew this was our last kiss how would your lips move
In church they must say just let go and pray
When we ascend to the gates there’s nothing more we can say
I can’t disagree
What we’ve done we accept
Every choice is a leap
Every decision a step
I don’t know why I can’t provide the post script inside
I can’t decide the sound of my sigh releasing all sin and letting fate win
If you knew this was your last day what would you do
If you knew this was our last kiss how would your lips move
4. Rose Stained Red
Hey, I've been thinking about yesterday
Now I just remembered how long it’s been
since the day we played
Here I’m here and it’s very clear that what is right is what I fear
But I believe someday we’ll be lazing peacefully underneath a tree
and I will smile and you will speak it’ll be like our hearts never missed a beat
Just when I leave promise to me you’ll leave your front door cracked just enough for me
Because I
left without ever saying goodbye
I didn’t even have time to thank your smile
for beauty and love and giving me life
Please let’s return before we
waste away
everything that makes us sane
That’s the way
Look at me beneath this tree I won’t ever let free this last memory
I reenact the last supper of our bliss I leaned over the food and gave you one final kiss
Now there’s nothing left and my last breath secures the love that has sealed my death
Here revived we sit and this flower I pick to present to you
It’s a promising gift
Because I
left without ever saying goodbye
I didn’t even have time to thank your smile
for the beauty and love and giving me life
Please let’s return before we
waste away
everything that makes us sane
That’s the way
A beautiful flower will wither and die if the neighboring weeds choke the struggling cry
for food and life and peace and soul
A rose stained red deserves little more
This haunted flower takes a tiny little breath
and then is crushed away and receives a painful death
But I believe you and me should return and live happily
Because I
left without ever saying goodbye
I didn’t even have time to thank your smile
for the beauty and love and giving me life
Please let’s return and we’ll smile
5. Itch Inside Your Ear
In the town of the street
where I keep a parking place for me to sleep
I wake up look around
Something’s changed and something’s frayed the city sound
Walk outside watch the trees
and their whispering a message to me
They say “follow the sound of peace
Return to the road where you used to sleep
In seconds that last for many years
sounds will fade to an itch inside your ear”
As I climb to the top
of my telling tree I see the city stop
I call out I need some help
I am stuck in a tree and nobody can hear me yell
I give up, sink back down
to my branch and I block out the city sound
Singing “follow the sound of peace
Return to the road where you used to sleep
In seconds that turn to many years
sounds will fade to an itch inside your ear”
And a leaf has fallen down
It’s blowing all over town
It’s looking for a home to feel comfortably sound
But the buses and the cabs blow the leaf into the crowd it loses coloring
Afraid and decayed the leaf rests in dismay
only to be joined by a million more the same
getting raked up in the crowd
Then I hear an angel sing
She is singing a faint sweet melody
I tune her in tune my thoughts out
She is far from where I stand but still I shout
“Come to me set me free
I am stuck in a tree and my city’s turned on me"
She sings “follow the sound of peace
return to the road where you used to sleep
In seconds that turn to many years
Your city sound was that itch inside your ear”
Inside my ear
My city sound was that itch inside my ear
6. Center of a Kiss
So much is in the center of a kiss
It doesn’t matter whether it exists
An optimistic wish is the sentimental basis of the kiss
A piece of a sentimental wish
sinks the calm - this hormonal driven bliss
And incandescent eyes stare at my grieving little smile
But we go
And I know
the treading in the water
I’ll be drowning in the water
We say goodbye
I have yet to find that special kiss
where I will build up the sentimental wish
and grinning little eyes will meet a gazing simple smile
But we go
And I know
the treading in the water
I’ll be drowning in the water
We say goodbye
7. Your Eyes
First glance I had on you I couldn’t move
I forgot everything I’d planned to do
First glance I was caught staring, but I lost caring
You silenced me and locked me with your eyes
I tried to protest
but reason gave me the test and I did what I thought best and released
But we lapse again
We crash again
I can’t beg the birds to sing
I can’t wear your comfort ring
Oh my sight is lost in your eyes
Last night you and me felt like we
were meant to be when I was inside
But then we spoke
I knew what I was about to do
would end with you pushing me aside
You tried to protest
but reason put you to rest and you did what you do best and released
You turned to me, face to cheek, I couldn’t see but felt on me I made you cry
But we lapse again
We crash again
I can’t beg the birds to sing
I can’t wear your comfort ring
Oh my sight is lost in your eyes
This time I thought the seas would change for me
but the current tugged I gave up and shrugged
Again I’ll lose
Don’t make me choose
I’ll be fine
8. Blanket-Go-Round
The pillow loses volume
below you
I move to give it life
The blanket has now fallen
all on you
The breeze gives my mind sight
I could rest here always
Wide eyed I lie and sigh because
I know the moment our feet meet the ground
i
t’s over and I’m closer to being bound to the blanket-go-round
Timidly I whisper
I kiss her
begging for some life
Asleep she cannot hear me
or feel me
I wait and watch the sun rise
I could rest here always
Wide eyed I lie and sigh because
I know the moment our feet meet the ground
i
t’s over and I’m closer to being bound to the blanket-go-round
Last week was the dancer
Next week I’ll have my answer
how we fit inside
Blankets serve one purpose and
I am very nervous
I’ll never find the one that keeps me warm
I have fooled my brain
into thinking blankets change
with each new owner they find
I curl up underneath
this week’s blanket and I sleep
thrilled but chilled again tonight
I could rest here always
Wide eyed I lie and sigh because
I know the moment our feet meet the ground
it’s over and I’m closer to being bound to the blanket-go-round
9. Beneath the Moon
My sheets are tangled
around my legs inside my room
I twist my angle
to free my thoughts and lose this tune
that’s been tugging from that night I left
my necktie in your room
that’s been humming in the air each night
I lay awake
beneath the moon
A different battle
Every night a tangle war
My thoughts are shadows
darkened by your light with more
sleepless nights staring at the moon
The same light that once lit the hammock
where we first kissed that June
beneath the moon
If you could feel the loss that has been blinding me
You wouldn’t be so quick to make me lose my sleep
But you don’t help me hold onto that night
I lost my sight
beneath the moon
I bought a new necktie
the first since I lost the last for good
I made it a black tie
This won’t stain like the last one could
The moon is falling sun’s coming up
Another night I lost looking up
I can’t let go of your melting smile
I can’t let go of my inner child
I lie
Awake I try
Too late to cry
Away you fly
10. Christian Dear
I’m sifting through pictures revealing your past life
and the further back in time I see I am reminded of my insignificancy
I’m a new friend a new man and your photos reinforce so simply
I’m a no one in a lone frame of what makes you and me
I can’t believe how quickly I fell just the other day I rang the bachelor bell
Swinging on the rope with my mallet held tight
but a spark lit the strings and burned a brighter light
I’m a new man with a new plan
I’m taking my time like a kid in the sand
I have new tears with new fears
I’m falling in love with a Christian dear
Just hold the light
a little bit higher I can’t read your eyes
I’m growing blind
I’m hanging on thread that last a thousand miles
I’m helpless here a dripping tear
I’m falling in love with a Christian dear
My dear
She left me for a day at the beach her ex boyfriend went to accompany
I sat in my room cutting photographs piecing her in where my heart fell out
I am home sick alone with the unfamiliar feeling of jealousy’s gift
It’s a wrapped fear a trapped tear I’m keeping inside from my Christian dear
Just hold the light
A little bit higher I can’t see your eyes
I’m growing blind
I’m hanging on a thread that lasts a thousand miles
I’m helpless here a dripping tear
I’m falling
Just hold me tight
A little bit longer I can’t help my eyes
I’m falling blind
I’m hanging on a thread but you’re giving me the ties
I’ve let down my guard it’s time to start a reason why
and lift our fear and volunteer
our secrets in the vault where the walls have become clear
I’m helpless here a drying tear
I’m falling clear of reason’s steer
I am shifting gears lifting fear
I’m falling in love with a Christian dear
My dear
I’m sifting through pictures revealing our new life
11. Sleep
Slipped out of bed
Six in the morning
I’m all out of dreams
4 hours ago I went to sleep feeling
the morning will bring peace
Here I melt another day
another way holding just warming your heart as you sleep
Frost has begun
on time as scheduled
I thought this year might be a change
The presence of winter
burns through my finger
touching the window sill’s glass
Here I melt another day
another way holding just warming your heart as you sleep
First night in ages
I dreamed of the places
you and I will travel in time
Who you are I’m not sure
but that doesn’t matter
When we’re old we’ll both feel the same
Here I melt another day
another way holding just warming your heart as you sleep
Sun has now seeped
right through my window
The frost has left a light glow
Inches from simple
Miles from smiles
I sit staring hopelessly and wait
Here I melt another day
another way holding just warming your heart as you sleep
I won’t let go
Sleep
We’re all alone
Sleep
One Take
All words and music by Ari HerstandCopyright 2007 ASCAP
1. Float on By
Float on by my street
Here I’ve come to meet
Why I lost my way to fear
Many hopes long ago
Float on pass the woods
Smelling nature’s goods
Lifting all them up
As they pass one by
Float on by my car
A million drives I now recall
My permit to drive back home
Has passed on by
This river I float on by
All the dreams I left behind
Regrets too tiresome
What makes sense this tune I hum
So many fears so many years
Waiting for tomorrow
Remember on back to school
How I’d been such a fool
Where are all my peers
Probably living my dreams
Now where are my dreams
That I had been so keen
On making them come true
They’ve washed all away
I waited for the way
They promised to show me some day
I waited one day too long
Now here I’m left alone
It’s a sad day that will come
When we’ll have forgotten to have fun
We’ll look back on our pictures
And we’ll laugh on by
So many fears so many years
Waiting for tomorrow
It’s time to float on to another place
I’ve gone so fast, so much is left behind
There’s nothing left for me to live by
Nothing’s here
Float on ‘till tomorrow
2. Proud Honeybee
So here we stand we are infants so small
Dreaming that one day we’ll be on top of it all
Above the mountains above the trees
But here I sit wishing down on my knees
I’ve seen the creatures in this so-called promise land
I don’t believe that what we brag is all that grand
Yes wave them flags like a proud honeybee
Blindly working for the queen of an invisible feat
So how do we recuperate?
Just now we emancipate
Our right to be free
With one tiny fee
We trash away
The innocent face
Of all the colors who stand in our way
America, home of the free and brave
Imperceptible to what her French statue raves
A prison cell holds on to our foreign hate
A beehive hell is fine for our conscience’s sake
Because a honeybee gives treats to the free but stings them dead if you frighten its destiny
America, home of the free and brave
Imperceptible to what her French statue raves
It’s good enough when we lock up the fear
It’s our master plan for patriot love right here
I am so fed up with the whole
Patriot scheme that’s killing the dream
Of integration with everyone
How can we preach love
When we interfere with the buzz
“With liberty and justice for all”
America, home of the free and brave
Imperceptible to what her French statue raves
It’s good enough when we lock up the fear
It’s our master plan for patriot love right here
And this honeybee giving treats to the free, stinging them dead I feel so free
Mamma can’t you see it's time for me to teach this honeybee to see
This hive is erasing
The words of our fathers dream
3. Intro to...
4. 35
Will I wake up in an office cube
Offer the pizza boy another I OWE YOU
My boss piles up TPS reports
He says “Son that memo was just a reminder note”
One day when I am thirty five
Will I think
How did I get here and why
Will you say
“Don’t you question why I found you
It was meant to be babe
No matter how we got here”
Will I wake up in a sewage plant
Burning my clothes to free that rancid stench
Open my lunch box to see a note you drew
Multi colors saying “I love you”
One day when I am thirty five
Will I think
How did I get here and why
Will you say
“Don’t you question why I found you
It was meant to be babe
No matter how we got here”
Will I wake up on the softball field
My kids in the crowd leading my team’s cheer
We’re down by 6 but they don’t really care
Because their favorite player’s up to bat, Hey there!
One day when I am thirty five
Will I think
How did I get here and why
Will you say
“Don’t you question why I found you
It was meant to be babe
No matter how we got here”
If you ask me babe
I think we’ll be alright
5. Blanket-Go-Round
The pillow loses volume
below you
I move to give it life
The blanket has now fallen
all on you
The breeze gives my mind sight
I could rest here always
Wide eyed I lie and sigh because
I know the moment our feet meet the ground
i
t’s over and I’m closer to being bound to the blanket-go-round
Timidly I whisper
I kiss her
begging for some life
Asleep she cannot hear me
or feel me
I wait and watch the sun rise
I could rest here always
Wide eyed I lie and sigh because
I know the moment our feet meet the ground
i
t’s over and I’m closer to being bound to the blanket-go-round
Last week was the dancer
Next week I’ll have my answer
how we fit inside
Blankets serve one purpose and
I am very nervous
I’ll never find the one that keeps me warm
I have fooled my brain
into thinking blankets change
with each new owner they find
I curl up underneath
this week’s blanket and I sleep
thrilled but chilled again tonight
I could rest here always
Wide eyed I lie and sigh because
I know the moment our feet meet the ground
it’s over and I’m closer to being bound to the blanket-go-round
6. Poster Boy Celebrity
A poster boy celebrity ahead of me is something I believe in somewhere I can dream in someone I’m a feelin
Generalize my size inside despise the lies that make me wise gimme ties that make me high and never give up and die
We try to side with the minds and kinds unite to find rewind intertwine with my line my crime what is this crime
Instead I dread my bed each night my head is fed with meds to make me numb and misled
unsettling
treading water in my sleep every chance I get to weep I fall deep into another painted dream
It seems I run a street team regime but my massive scheme that others seldom see is it’s all me
Yes the posters and website the might it takes to hold it up and win this fight is to pretend I am a hundred men in the end no one knows the work and dirt I perk up to greet each jerk that gives me shit for my perks
It works it hurts but I’ll never lose my quirks and smirks
I love my work
So I’m a poster boy celebrity ahead of me is something I believe in somewhere I can dream in someone I’m a feelin
This is how I choose to peruse the news I lose a minute to misuse the clues from beneath the cover page
The haunted age of rage of sage that clobbers me with scents and I repent to turn the page
I meant to bring you flowers but he cowers at the powers that showers the hours as monotony sets in
Too weak to ask if I’ll ever meet the task that is deep inside the flask of liquid hope
I joke my cries will open up my eyes and my size will be the ultimate prize
I'm just a Poster boy celebrity ahead of me is something I believe in somewhere I can dream in someone I’m a feelin
Another day we will wait around and ask a friend
To play a game that will bring us back to the day we were sane
We aim for the same justifiable gains
We love to be loved and we thrive on shame from those we see succeeding without blame
Is it our duty to destroy the strongest of the pact
When they show weakness only then we turn our back
I like to say I thrive to stay inside the lives of the masses
fastest as molasses is the only way to last as the passes to the classes
Generalize my size inside despise the lies that make me wise gimme ties that make me high and never give up and die
We try to side with the minds and kinds unite to find rewind intertwine the line it’s time to find a rhyme undo this crime a dime
a lime a rhyme a find a sign a sonic whine a tonic kind a trickling pickling tickling panoramic sign
7. A Smile
A girl walks mother by her side
An ice cream cone and four years on her own
Reminisce the nightly gifts and the musical riffs
From holiday rhymes to the New York Times
Simple toys have their simple joys
There's happiness in the simple little gifts
Piece together one remaining smile
It's free for just this while
A picket fence ‘round a luminescent dream
Look at me and my fancy little scene
Porsche away a rainy day with an extra little pay
Mend the time with a line from a formulated script
Feel the breeze without please, there's no treasure in the whether
Where's my smile?! Yes it's been a while
Please come out and skip away to the blithe encompassed day
I can't remember my plans from yesterday
I can't remember why I walked outside today
The darkening clouds and the piercing sounds
There's a smile within the gray
The smiling town and the sunset's found
I'll find somewhere to play here
It's a complicated smile when there's so much to hide
A toothless perk is so much work
Hide away frustrate undefined underlined
The grin of sin never wins
Look around I have found the perfect smile to make my trial
It's a gift to be simple it's a gift to be free
When I grin at the smile I can truly see
There's so much behind the teeth let them glow they will show
There's no pain when we're the same
Yeah it's ok fake the day
I came out of this bubble blesséd shell
To find glory and pride were an inadvertent hell
Preach the words of the profit from the holy book
Well, books ain't my thing but I still like to look
It's a game when I aim for that infinite bliss
But you play in my way and I don't think I'll miss
When you stand in my light and eclipse my favorite site
Of the smiles and trials mango lusse delight
8. Beneath the Moon
My sheets are tangled
around my legs inside my room
I twist my angle
to free my thoughts and lose this tune
that’s been tugging from that night I left
my necktie in your room
that’s been humming in the air each night
I lay awake
beneath the moon
A different battle
Every night a tangle war
My thoughts are shadows
darkened by your light with more
sleepless nights staring at the moon
The same light that once lit the hammock
where we first kissed that June
beneath the moon
If you could feel the loss that has been blinding me
You wouldn’t be so quick to make me lose my sleep
But you don’t help me hold onto that night
I lost my sight
beneath the moon
I bought a new necktie
the first since I lost the last for good
I made it a black tie
This won’t stain like the last one could
The moon is falling sun’s coming up
Another night I lost looking up
I can’t let go of your melting smile
I can’t let go of my inner child
I lie
Awake I try
Too late to cry
Away you fly
9. So Fantastical
Hello Mr. Ordinary, I don’t believe we’ve met
But I can see this is going to be a little strange
You see I am very compatible but also simply fallible
And corky little necessities make up what I affectionately call me
A giant wallet helps me organize with a
Monster change pouch that’s just my size
It’s all I need to keep down my flaws
Plus maybe a hundred or two chewing straws
Snow is so fantastical
Dancing’s irresistible
Children are adorable
And I am clearly irrational
I am running around in circles, it’s just my thing
I am humbly thanking the architect of my fantasies
I am down stage center and a summertime camper jungle gym
But spinning around on my head and chasing the stars till I am dead makes me me
I don’t pretend to be machine washed
I like to find those who deny they’re lost
I leave a smile when I see a child
I disregard the word bizarre
I chase after buses and make restaurant fuses
It’s who I am
Snow is so fantastical
Dancing’s irresistible
Children are adorable
I am simply irrational
I am running around in circles, it’s just my thing
I am humbly thanking the architect of my fantasies
I am down stage center and a summertime camper jungle gym
But spinning around on my head and chasing the stars till I am dead makes me me
Snow is so fantastical
Dancing’s irresistible
Children are adorable
And I am clearly irrational
10. The Photograph
Hi, hello again
I can’t believe it’s been four years since
Your smile, I know it sounds dumb but back at home I have
This photo of the two of us standing with a boy I don’t remember
But this picture, I’ve kept for simply one reason
Your smile
Hi, hello again. I see you but I’m afraid to leave
What do you say that you and me go someplace far away
Like Paris or Rome or Barcelona
I mean
Just kidding how about we go for coffee instead and
I’ll find that picture that I’ve waited to share
We’ll lay down I’ll stroke the curls in your hair
I’m racing too quickly but I’ll return revived
Here I sit wishing hope in your smile
Hi, hello again. Please pinch me I need to wake up
What do you say - I was just thinking let’s get married
I mean
Just kidding that’s a little quick and what I meant to say was
How are you
I’m happy now let’s start with that.
You are that picture that I’ve waited to share
We’ll lay down I’ll stroke the curls in your hair
I’m racing too quickly but I’ll return revived
Here I sit wishing hope in your smile
Hey I almost forgot to say
Your beautiful, so beautiful, your beautiful
Just like in that photograph
11. Itch Inside Your Ear
In the town of the street
where I keep a parking place for me to sleep
I wake up look around
Something’s changed and something’s frayed the city sound
Walk outside watch the trees
and their whispering a message to me
They say “follow the sound of peace
Return to the road where you used to sleep
In seconds that last for many years
sounds will fade to an itch inside your ear”
As I climb to the top
of my telling tree I see the city stop
I call out I need some help
I am stuck in a tree and nobody can hear me yell
I give up, sink back down
to my branch and I block out the city sound
Singing “follow the sound of peace
Return to the road where you used to sleep
In seconds that turn to many years
sounds will fade to an itch inside your ear”
And a leaf has fallen down
It’s blowing all over town
It’s looking for a home to feel comfortably sound
But the buses and the cabs blow the leaf into the crowd it loses coloring
Afraid and decayed the leaf rests in dismay
only to be joined by a million more the same
getting raked up in the crowd
Then I hear an angel sing
She is singing a faint sweet melody
I tune her in tune my thoughts out
She is far from where I stand but still I shout
“Come to me set me free
I am stuck in a tree and my city’s turned on me"
She sings “follow the sound of peace
return to the road where you used to sleep
In seconds that turn to many years
Your city sound was that itch inside your ear”
Inside my ear
My city sound was that itch inside my ear
12. Center of a Kiss
So much is in the center of a kiss
It doesn’t matter whether it exists
An optimistic wish is the sentimental basis of the kiss
A piece of a sentimental wish
sinks the calm - this hormonal driven bliss
And incandescent eyes stare at my grieving little smile
But we go
And I know
the treading in the water
I’ll be drowning in the water
We say goodbye
I have yet to find that special kiss
where I will build up the sentimental wish
and grinning little eyes will meet a gazing simple smile
But we go
And I know
the treading in the water
I’ll be drowning in the water
We say goodbye
13. Air Cries Wind
A gorgeous stream where the turtles wade
My eyes found a lovely flower one day
With petals of red and ripples of blue floating past my toes
I washed my heart with the turtles and froze
Some time when the air cries wind
I'll rise up high and breathe all of you in
A cool breeze of empathy for love
In paradise there are lovers who swim
in the stream with the absence of everything
Splashing free with an intent of nonentity
With everything between two hearts they sing
Love will run down your cheek
Love will put your mind to sleep
I will catch your love and run away for...
...please say forever
Next week when the sun warms the wind
I'll lie outside and feel that breeze rush in
It carries life from another sunset around
And as I feel the stories of the other lovers I'm found
Some time when the air cries wind
I'll rise up high and breathe all of you in
A cool breeze of empathy for love
Baby Eyes
All words and music by Ari HerstandCopyright 2005 ASCAP
Lyrics Coming Soon!
